Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Best days of your life

i am home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 and i love it i have loved every moment of it :):):):) while i was away i forgot that life in magna did not end just because i left. my family has been as busy as ever. my little brother is now a man, my older sisters are head over heels in love, my father is the worlds greatest stake president, and my mother is going to save this world but in the mean time her scrap booking business are thriving. i became so caught up in my own life that i failed to recognize that those i love most are learning and growing as well.
being home this last two weeks is exactly what i needed. i was reminded that no matter where i go or where i live ; hotel or dorms i will always have a home. i was reminded that i will make all the friends in the world but that Rachel Ann will always be my best friend. i recognized that i can search for love and acceptance but when i am ready to come home it will always be here. i had the best Christmas, but not because of the gifts i had received but because for the first time i understood what it meant to be a part of a family. i will never regret my decision to live on my own and attend college, these are the best years of my life, but i love knowing that i will always have a place to call home and people who love me for me.
this break has been such a blast. last week we meant with my extremely loud crazy extended family. i left the Reunion with a bowling ball from the white elephants and memory's of those i love. i watched Rachel perform with her school choir four times and realized dang my sister can dance!!!!!! i had an epic date with my cutie pie friend Kevin, the second i walked in the door my sister informed me just how hot he was!!!!! i know why else would i go on a date with him? ;) my mom, my sisters, and i went and saw the nutcracker; which i loved but holly crap that is a ton of dancing for three hours!!!!!! we spent Christmas eve with my much calmer extended family. it was a great night. Christmas day we woke up at four thirty (hey you are never to old to get excited about Christmas) Tia's boyfriend spent the night with our younger brother and Christmas morning with us. i must say the best Christmas gift award goes to Erick , he got me a poster of JUSTIN BEIBER!!! it was an amazing day spent with amazing people. (pictures will come soon)
i absolutely love my life, not because it is super easy or stress free, but because it is all mine. it's mine to mess up time and time again, refine and then mess up again, it's mine to learn and grow from and it is mine to make perfect and i wouldn't trade it for anything :):):):)

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Big Truck

recently i had the opportunity to visit my best friend Tadja Potter in St. George. while i was there we watched the newest Kid history. in this episode randy has asked Santa for the newest and greatest toy. of course the toy now is extremely old and unheard of, but randy obsesses over the big truck.  the toy was meant to be a form of amusement, but for me it was much more than that. it was a dream others didn't understand, it was a goal, it was his childhood. it took me back to simpler days where life wasn't planned it just happened, you lived in the moment and you grew from it. 

recently i had a big truck that i waited for my whole life. i wouldn't accept just anyone's "big truck" i was waiting for the best biggest truck the world could offer. i wasn't going to throw this moment away. a boy appeared, not a man or a prince charming or even a knight in shinning armor, just a boy. he gave me his big truck and i gave him mine. the boy was wonderful and special but not the boy i was waiting for. we became great friends, but great friends don't exchange big trucks. . we didn't do anything wrong or harmful but i felt disgusted and disappointed. i didn't want to be the girl who would just kiss anyone ( yes that is what i am talking about)  but in the end that is exactly what happened, and while i did nothing wrong i can't shake this feeling of horror. but that is exactly where this sweet atonement comes in. this boy was wonderful in every way and i don't regret liking him, i regret giving and taking. i have a savior who knows exactly how i feel and knows and loves this young man as well. my savior died for me, for me Megyn Chantelle Rushton this young girl who messes up time and time again. he did it simply because he loves me, he did it with no guaranty that i would make it back into his loving arms, he did it for that slight chance that i might, two thousand years ago the worlds sweetest strongest women gave birth to a baby that didn't come to receive gifts from three wise man, rather he came to give the worlds greatest gift, himself. he brought the world a second chance. he loves us each individually more than we can ever know. he took away our pains and will continue to do so if we only ask. 

Saturday, December 3, 2011

hello :):):):):):) well first off  MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! :):):):):) i absoullty love this season the colors, the lights, the chocolate, the shopping, Christmas parties, all of it!!!! its a little weird not being home to celebrate and i miss my family so much right now but i just love my life and were i am at, these are memories in the making.
college life is crazy, i love suu, most gorgeous campus ever and most gorgeous boys ever!!!! a while ago all the students who lived in juniper were relocated so now i live in a hotel away from my best est friend. i miss my old roommate  love the knew one but miss the old one. i miss juniper and how friendly it was, and all the friends i made but i am learning from the situation, i think it has matured us all and made us stronger individuals.
i love the singles ward or the talk-about-marriage-until-you-get-married ward ;)  its so spiritual and i never walk away without being touched by what someone said.
i started zumba classes and i love it!!! thank you Jennifer for making me go :):):) its defiantly a working process since i cant dance at all ( which was proven at our CA invitational when Mayo proved he could "drop it hotter" than me) but i love every second of it :):):):)
i love love love CA's. we are probably the best leadership group on campus!!!!! two weeks ago we went to anti-gravity and it was one of the funnest days of my life, i have made some friends for life :):):):)
so i just love life :):):):) it's not easy but it wouldn't be fun or worth living if i didn't have to work everyday. i am grateful for so much :):):):)