Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Best days of your life

i am home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 and i love it i have loved every moment of it :):):):) while i was away i forgot that life in magna did not end just because i left. my family has been as busy as ever. my little brother is now a man, my older sisters are head over heels in love, my father is the worlds greatest stake president, and my mother is going to save this world but in the mean time her scrap booking business are thriving. i became so caught up in my own life that i failed to recognize that those i love most are learning and growing as well.
being home this last two weeks is exactly what i needed. i was reminded that no matter where i go or where i live ; hotel or dorms i will always have a home. i was reminded that i will make all the friends in the world but that Rachel Ann will always be my best friend. i recognized that i can search for love and acceptance but when i am ready to come home it will always be here. i had the best Christmas, but not because of the gifts i had received but because for the first time i understood what it meant to be a part of a family. i will never regret my decision to live on my own and attend college, these are the best years of my life, but i love knowing that i will always have a place to call home and people who love me for me.
this break has been such a blast. last week we meant with my extremely loud crazy extended family. i left the Reunion with a bowling ball from the white elephants and memory's of those i love. i watched Rachel perform with her school choir four times and realized dang my sister can dance!!!!!! i had an epic date with my cutie pie friend Kevin, the second i walked in the door my sister informed me just how hot he was!!!!! i know why else would i go on a date with him? ;) my mom, my sisters, and i went and saw the nutcracker; which i loved but holly crap that is a ton of dancing for three hours!!!!!! we spent Christmas eve with my much calmer extended family. it was a great night. Christmas day we woke up at four thirty (hey you are never to old to get excited about Christmas) Tia's boyfriend spent the night with our younger brother and Christmas morning with us. i must say the best Christmas gift award goes to Erick , he got me a poster of JUSTIN BEIBER!!! it was an amazing day spent with amazing people. (pictures will come soon)
i absolutely love my life, not because it is super easy or stress free, but because it is all mine. it's mine to mess up time and time again, refine and then mess up again, it's mine to learn and grow from and it is mine to make perfect and i wouldn't trade it for anything :):):):)

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Big Truck

recently i had the opportunity to visit my best friend Tadja Potter in St. George. while i was there we watched the newest Kid history. in this episode randy has asked Santa for the newest and greatest toy. of course the toy now is extremely old and unheard of, but randy obsesses over the big truck.  the toy was meant to be a form of amusement, but for me it was much more than that. it was a dream others didn't understand, it was a goal, it was his childhood. it took me back to simpler days where life wasn't planned it just happened, you lived in the moment and you grew from it. 

recently i had a big truck that i waited for my whole life. i wouldn't accept just anyone's "big truck" i was waiting for the best biggest truck the world could offer. i wasn't going to throw this moment away. a boy appeared, not a man or a prince charming or even a knight in shinning armor, just a boy. he gave me his big truck and i gave him mine. the boy was wonderful and special but not the boy i was waiting for. we became great friends, but great friends don't exchange big trucks. . we didn't do anything wrong or harmful but i felt disgusted and disappointed. i didn't want to be the girl who would just kiss anyone ( yes that is what i am talking about)  but in the end that is exactly what happened, and while i did nothing wrong i can't shake this feeling of horror. but that is exactly where this sweet atonement comes in. this boy was wonderful in every way and i don't regret liking him, i regret giving and taking. i have a savior who knows exactly how i feel and knows and loves this young man as well. my savior died for me, for me Megyn Chantelle Rushton this young girl who messes up time and time again. he did it simply because he loves me, he did it with no guaranty that i would make it back into his loving arms, he did it for that slight chance that i might, two thousand years ago the worlds sweetest strongest women gave birth to a baby that didn't come to receive gifts from three wise man, rather he came to give the worlds greatest gift, himself. he brought the world a second chance. he loves us each individually more than we can ever know. he took away our pains and will continue to do so if we only ask. 

Saturday, December 3, 2011

hello :):):):):):) well first off  MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! :):):):):) i absoullty love this season the colors, the lights, the chocolate, the shopping, Christmas parties, all of it!!!! its a little weird not being home to celebrate and i miss my family so much right now but i just love my life and were i am at, these are memories in the making.
college life is crazy, i love suu, most gorgeous campus ever and most gorgeous boys ever!!!! a while ago all the students who lived in juniper were relocated so now i live in a hotel away from my best est friend. i miss my old roommate  love the knew one but miss the old one. i miss juniper and how friendly it was, and all the friends i made but i am learning from the situation, i think it has matured us all and made us stronger individuals.
i love the singles ward or the talk-about-marriage-until-you-get-married ward ;)  its so spiritual and i never walk away without being touched by what someone said.
i started zumba classes and i love it!!! thank you Jennifer for making me go :):):) its defiantly a working process since i cant dance at all ( which was proven at our CA invitational when Mayo proved he could "drop it hotter" than me) but i love every second of it :):):):)
i love love love CA's. we are probably the best leadership group on campus!!!!! two weeks ago we went to anti-gravity and it was one of the funnest days of my life, i have made some friends for life :):):):)
so i just love life :):):):) it's not easy but it wouldn't be fun or worth living if i didn't have to work everyday. i am grateful for so much :):):):)

Monday, November 7, 2011

Life; there is nothing else to call it :):):)

life is busy, life is hard, it's messed up, it's crazy, unexpected and sometimes unfair, but in the end life is what you make it.
the president of our university explained "life is 10% percent what happens to us and 90% how we respond"
life happens, students get kicked out of there home and our forced to live in hotels, boys act like they like you then change your mind without telling you,super hot boys are gay,you fail tests, you fight with friends and then you move on.
the truth is bad things happen to good people who don't deserve it, people get hurt that doesn't mean god doe's not love us, it only means he wants us to learn from the choices we make and he wants to help our testimony's become stronger. when you cry he cries he still loves us, if i have learned one thing this week it has been that. my friend Jennifer explained that god is not going to give us anything we cannot handle, but we can handle a lot more thank we think we can, we are so much stronger than we know. no matter how hard life gets remember that someone has it worse than you. we could accomplish so much more if we focused on other people and not just ourselves.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

its the college life for me :D:D:D

i Megyn Chantelle Rushton have been at college for a total of one week and two days!!!! i love it!!!! its crazy different and takes forever to get use to, not a day goes by that i don't want to burst into tears from missing my family but i am having so much fun!!!!! i have the opportunity to be a community attache which is basically like a PA over housing, i have meant so many great people. there are a couple of girls who drive me crazy, you know the kind the ones who only talk to you if it makes them look good or there is something in it for them but other then that i love it!!!! i get to give tours of housing and host overnights!!!!!! double plus my advisor is chad Scott hot!!!!!! although he is not chad Scott amazing and spiritual so he is just fun to look at :D
me And Nicole made a new friend bleu, yes like bleu cheese, he is so funny and while i don't think so according to my roomie he is hot stuff. Alex mortenson got here yesterday and it has just been one big party after another. i love the people here and so far my favorite class is Psychology which just happens to be my major so lucky me:D
oh boy is living with another girl hard, don't get me wrong i love it but we came up here already being super close so we didn't expect to have to set any boundaries, well let me tell you everyone has boundries, contrary to popular belief ( belief brought on by roomies facebook post) we are getting along just great, we just need to set into routine and get use to the change and our different lifestyles it was easy to be best friends when we didn't have to see each other everyday and deal with each others tick and flaws we prepared our selves for easy fun and that is not exactly what happened, but now we have learned we need to work to get along and be patient and respectful and things are going great!!!
I miss my family like crazy i think the only thing that keeps me from running home is knowing that although my family can't be with me my father in heaven is. i swear i have never prayed so much in my life, i am so grateful for such a loving father in heaven who watches out for silly little girls who miss their mommy and are afraid to be on there own.
we had a speaker talk about fear and i learned some valuable points; fear is not evil in fact it can be good but only if you use that fear to push yourself instead of letting it hold you back. we will get no where in life, learn nothing, and become nothing if we don't face our fears and take risks life isn't just going to happen we have to live it take every opportunity given to us and run with it! well this desperate girl has got to find a job so i am out to go turn in some applications!!!
Megyn Chantelle Rushton :D

Friday, August 5, 2011

my first post ever!!:D:):):)

well hello blogging world!!!!!!!! i am officially an adult now!!!!! hmmm well now that i have one of these i don't really know what to say how do you people do this? :D
i start my college experience in one week and a day from today, and i cant wait!!! :D i am terrified but still crazy excited i cant wait to take this next step in my life that scares the death out of me. with lots and lots of prayers though i know it will be the best thing ever.
last night my very best friends and i got to hang out one last time before leaving to school( well one of them is my roommate and the other is going to the next door college.) we laughed from the moment we got there to the time i got home. they are such amazing girls. i am so excited to live with Nicole and become even closer than we are now she is adorable and so amazing and i will learn so much from her. tadja has been my best friend since the moment our spirits were created, she has changed my life and besides my parents she is the one who has had the biggest impact on who i have become. she made my childhood the best one anyone could have. twirling, saving dashing prince's, chasing tornado's, saving middle earth, assisting harry potter in the war against evil, tackling massive garbage cans, making out with bed posts, poofy dresses, first crushes, every memory i have has her in it.

i love them both oddles and tons!!! :D