Today I was in my kitchen making brownies and as I licked the spoon I was reminded of the time my roommates and I mixed the brownie batter and ate just the batter for days. :):):)
I miss it, I miss all of it. I miss my gorgeous roommates who drove me crazy, made me smile and laugh, and who became my family. I miss going to class instead of work. I miss the cute boy who stole my heart. I miss the mentors who worked with SANS. I miss the best RA's and coworkers. I miss the two best bosses anyone could ever have. I miss the residents who stressed me out, who I loved, and who I had a blast with. I miss College!!!!!! I had the two best years of my life and saying goodbye is extremely hard.
With that being said I am beyond excited for what comes next. I am overly excited and scared to serve a mission. I am ecstatic to fall in love again and again and start a family; a family I will be with forever.
I have been molded and shaped in the past two years into the person that I am. However I am not done, I will continue to change and grow. Both of which scare me immensely. I am terrified of change; however I said the same thing when I left high school and my life has only improved since then.
" Come what may and love it" right?
My dear best friend has just been married in the temple. :):):) I cannot express my excitement for her. My two older sisters just bought a house. Rachel and Tyson are both working for their first jobs, and Miss Jenna joe is trying out for dance company. People change, life goes on and usually it is for the better.
I am excited for forever :):):)
When me and Park broke it off I had to try fathoming doing exactly what you have just done and leave everything you love at college and that city where you built your own life and came to grips with yourself and the Lord....it holds a special place in your heart and it always will!! I kept thinking about a mission and how it was going to be the same kind of thing but like ten times worse...I couldn't stand thinking about all of the missing and good byes I would have to get through over the next 60 ish years of my life....especially when missing and saying good bye to Parker hurt sooooo badly. I have to say that I wasn't brave enough and I think that's why Heavenly Father gave Parker back....but it truly takes a lot of courage, faith, and strength to move on and I think you are amazing for it! You are going to be the best missionary ever and forever is the best, most peaceful and reassuring statement that could ever be said when you get to spend it forever with the ones you love and our Heavenly Father. You are bringing that to the people of Virginia (which I think will be a cooler place to you than you think ;). I can't wait to hear of your adventures and you will surely be a fierce thing to behold when you get back!!! A girl like you with an even STRONGER TESTIMONY???? Watch out world, she's coming to convert you!!
ReplyDeleteLove you meg.